Where to begin, even?

I know it's terrible and stupid, but alas not entirely unfounded thus not so easily dismissed, but I worry with a heavy sickness in my stomach that he's ashamed of me. I feel like an idiot entertaining the thought, but... I don't know. I have no problem wanting to introduce him to my friends, and I understand we're both very different people with incredibly different circles, but even when he talks about all his gatherings, I feel the tiniest pang that he doesn't even do an insincere courtesy ask. But I know that's imposing and presumptuous, and again, I know very little about whether that would even be appropriate, but... I mean, okay. I could understand if he thought this had an unsteady future, and if I were to meet anyone, it would just be becoming too emotionally invested, but he claims to feel good about it. Does he still feel good about it? Gahk. Again, these are my insecurities playing against me, but I suppose I just don't know what to make of it. God I'm a dickhead. More likely I'm getting myself worked up over nothing, and if he reads this he'll think I'm a dickhead too. I just...
I can think of why he'd be ashamed of me. I know why I would be ashamed of me.
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