I know you've reached a very low point when you're posting about FB beyond "lololol look at my status quip" but honestly, why is everything utilised as a tool for this utter bullshit everyone insists on stirring up?
Everything we create, invent or dream is eventually used for meaningless petty shit!
First, Mariha adds me, which could be completely innocuous. We knew each other, we now have quite a few mutual friends, and assuming she doesn't suspect anything, it could be that she just stumbled upon my page, and the timing was merely coincidental.
But given what Aaron has said, her track record for remarks directed at people in her statuses and what she said within minutes of adding me, I feel as though she has done her snooping. Which, by the way, makes my stomach turn. Her keeping tabs on Aaron or myself just makes me feel lyk supa dupa ill at ease.
So
Mariha Moon There is something about you that makes me physically sick
I know it is self-involved to assume anything is ever directed at you, on anything like this, be it statuses, blog posts, MSN names, whatever, and I am not saying "OHMYGOD GUYS I THINK THIS IS ABOUT ME" just simply that knowing she is not on pleasant terms with Aaron and that she does indeed profile stalk a bit, I don't want to become embroiled in their shit. Honestly I have enough of my own bullshit to just wanna GTFO when the possibility of more arises. That said, I'm going to do the right thing and I intend to stick by Aaron and support him as best I can in dealing with whatever she can throw his way, but I'm just hoping it's anti-climatic and we can all just settle down and forget all past crapola. Man it kinda makes you want to have never dated anyone prior.
Aaaaand then! Robi decides to resurface, as he does every now and then, and he's just being crude and I don't know why, but it bothered me. That he still latently pursues it, after his many tantrums, and despite many other potential conquests waiting, he never quite let me go.
I just ended up closing FB, made sure he was still blocked on MSN and pulled my knees up to my chin. There is so much trivial bullshit in this life I do not care for, things and people I want no part in but I am already so deeply mired, I couldn't get away if I tried.
I think I should just spend less time there. Find a new forum to take my mind off it. Spend more time on Chan, iono.
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