It was as if

the Universe looked down at me and said "she has so much love in her life, and watch her squander it" so the Universe places a tiny, tiny touch on the abdomen on my mother and destroyed where I came from and the one who loved me most.

HAHAHAHAHA SCRATCH THAT I SUCK COCKS

but seriously that just contradicts my whole "Universe is a series of statistics and random occurrences and coincidences and culminating waves and omnipotence and the ability to predict the future would just be knowing the full extent and predictable outcomes of every minuscule event simultaneously" so yeah.