I woke up to 4 messages; One from Ben, two from Aaron and an unfamiliar number.
Ben "In case you hadn't noticed, I'm the biggest, stupidest, most unintelligent retard on the planet."
(and I don't know what it's supposed to mean but self depreciation makes me feel a little uneasy...)
Aaron "Hope you're feeling better. Don't like it when you're sad! <3"
Unknown number "get fucked!"
(... this shouldn't upset me because it could even be a wrong number, but knowing full well how many people I've hurt in my time, it could be someone with a legit motivation to tell me to get fucked.")
Aaron "You drive me crazy girl, you have been on my mind constantly. Miss you Nynny."
I love my choices. Anonymous (not legion, just individual cowardice) dicks being unreasonable assholes, self-depreciative shit that just seems like a walk in to something vindictive ("oh no, you're not stupid at all. what's wrong?" which is my fault because I indulge people,) someone that is sweet, albeit crazy. I get manipulation, abuse and crazy (but happiness)
I just feel this rumbling, this deep-seated instinct, something animal and primitive... a notion to just go...
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